Last night.

I remember when I was in elementary school in stuff, and I thought that you know, the older you get, the more you learn, and the more you learn the more you know.
As I got higher and high in highschool I thought that, you know, I was gaining so much knowledge and experience, but it really wasn't until the last few years that I started questioning the validity of knowledge.
I really agree with this quote in Mr Waits room:
"education is a progressive discovery of our own ignorance"
feels like that quote is the most concise way I could possibly sum up how I feel right now.

Romeo and Juliet by the Killers is a perfect song. There's also a lava lamp here, and an awesome atmosphere. Four chicks and a cake.

Jessie and I both looked very different back then.

J'adore.

Going to White Rock very soon.
Going to spend the night with Jessie and Emma.
Going to be lovely.

http://www.formspring.me/Productivity

I really go through big fazes of piano instrumental music.

My five favourite artists for those are:

Eluvium
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CSsF_iq3kMw

Explosions in the Sky
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fd8NntItlio

Beethoven
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vQVeaIHWWck&feature=related

Chopin

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DL_8X-0e_KI

Philip Glass

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CcyTyLqkvoU

Dont you waste your time.

Man, you got a lot of jokes to tell

So you throw your baby’s banners down the well

Give a little more than you like

Pick apart the past, you’re not going back

Don’t you waste your time

Additionally, I really need to fess up and admit that I watch and enjoy very mediocre tv shows.
I mean, as far as brilliant tv shows, the fact that I am madly in love with Vampire Diaries....
belittles me... but FlashForward is awesome.

My favourite song right now. Thank you Mr. Wait:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pFxdDE0k1_Q

The highlights of my day today:
*an assembly our grade had in which our principal tried to make us love him by complimenting us excessively.
*walking to the hardware store in the rain with a friend. Not just the rain. it was beautiful rain.
*eating lunch with a friend I haven't talked to for a while, while being bombarded by fruit flies.
*talking about music/people/life in Mr. Novix's room for an hour. It was a very interesting conversation, and it's not that I don't necessarilly have those often, but this particular conversation was very refreshing. I just find teachers to be very wise people. Some of them, at least.

This is my kid brother. I love him very much. It's nice to have a sibling, because you can be very close to them and they really do know you better then anyone because they live with you, and they are not like a friend, in the respect that friends can be lost. You know they will be in your lives for a long time, so there is no, ending of said friendship.

I hope that he and I can still hang out when he's older.

He is definitely one of my best friends.

Our Yearbook is going to look AWESOME.
I speculate.
For some reason yearbook felt like six hours instead of two today, but luckily I got to be the DJ, and playing music always helps.. anything from passion pit, beethoven, kanye west, it was wonderful.
Today was awesome just because I got to spend a lot of time with someone, but I am alone at my house right now which makes me sad.
I'm going to talk about decisions, because I made a decision about forty ish minutes ago, and I'm really waffling over how I feel about it. I Hate those decisions where you make them JUST to make a decision, or where it's not actually genuine, or where you change your mind five seconds later.
The problem with me and decision making is the fact that I really have problems making up my mind, ever, about things, so making a decision is the extreme of that, which obviously, by extension, I find very difficult.
ahh

This is why I love a certain friend who wishes to remain anonymous:

our phone call consists of us both holding a copy of "Catcher in the Rye" and debating/discussing various facets of Caulfield.

Agnosticism=Alienation?

There are churches across the world, youth-groups, cults, organizations, masses of religous people, globally, who are brought together by one similar, binding factor: God.
As an agnostic I feel more out of touch, alone, as us agnostics have nothing to bring us together but our.. lack of belief/acceptance of any one solid theory. There is no comradery in disbelief.
Conversely, as someone who doesn't necessarilly accept God, it's hard not to view such, closeness as a "false comradery".
There is no solidity in life, that is something I've learned: There is no it is, just it could be's, and to convince yourself that you are absuloute in your thoughts and convictions, is naievity.  
There is no confirmation, just the impossible duality:
Science and Hope.

Come to terms with a few things:
* I really do care about my English mark, and it embaresses me because I don't want to be one of those people that is super percentage-obsessed. But realisically speaking, a good mark to me speaks of some sort of recognition of all the work I've put in and my passion for it.
* Philosophy club should happen more then once a week.. I mean, sure it's great to let all those idea's accumulate, but my thinking is not exclusive to tuesdays at lunch.
* As awesome as it is to have time alone, I love how much time I've been spending with friends. Isolationism is awesome, but only in countries in world war one and two....
* I have been sort of in a "bubble".. the song high speed by Coldplay comes to mind lyrically.. anyways I no longer am going to let other people's perceptions of how I should be, cloud my perception of how I should be. And I deserve to be treated with respect, I mean, I don't care if it's a clone of me, I know myself better then anyone and how I feel and am should be validated.

ALSO
* The song Quiet Houses by Fleet Foxes may quite possibly be my favourite song ever.

I don't know about you

Who are they talking to

They're not talking to me

http://www.last.fm/user/Tashk13

White Demon Love Song.

:(
Pretty awful day.

Today was the first day back at school. Went to Powells, heard Raymonds stories about parties he had and people he fought... Powell's father in law died, and Yorke was acting very out of character, doubting her teaching skills. Fortunately I am not in geography i.e. in her grasp.

First block, Law with Tuck, Torts, Torts, Damages.. Law is probably the class I learn most in just because I have absuloutely no background in Law at all. Also, it's really interesting because so many crime shows are marketed in the media, just due to public fascination. I was watching Castle today and because of the things I know about Law I kept laughing at the show.. it's very un realistic.

Then I had photography. Ah Photoshop, how I missed thee.

Lunch of hashbrowns and pasta salad, discussing Metric with a friend...

Lit was after lunch, and was it lovely.. yes, yes, it was. A little bit of Atwood, a little bit of Wolfe, and a lot of Pynchon. Discussed by thoughts on thesis with Moorhead: sexuality is my topic..

Then my favourite, English. A breath of fresh air.. Reading Catcher in the Rye... Wait being witty. Found out I'm getting the highest mark in my class for term two. yay? I'm dissapointed at how little I care, although it is re-assuring in a sense.

Katrina came over after school and we watched The office, chatted, played Super Smash bro's..

Now I am tired and ready to tackle some more Pynchon.

Here's a photo from the vault. my favourite urban outfitters shirt.

Anyways, that's a summary of my day. Not sure how much longer I can keep this up.

It's nice though.. a good ending to my day I suppose.

Goodnight, Internet.

I was the one, with the world at my feet.

Got us a battle, leave it up to me.

I WAS A BLINDFOLD,

AND NEVER COMPLAINED.

ALL THE SURVIVORS,

SINGING IN THE RAIN.

I know it's a lie, I want it to be true
The rest of the ride is riding on you
Over goodbyes we'll buy some place

For wishing you could
Keep me closer, I'm a lazy dancer,
when you move I move with you
Keep me closer, I'm a lazy dancer,
when you move I move with you

Send us a blindfold, send us a blade

Tell the survivors help is on the way

I was a blindfold, never complained

All the survivors singing in the rain

I was the one with the world at my feet

Got us a battle, leave it up to me

Last summer I went to Bumbershoot in Seattle, and one of the wonderful bands I saw was Metric.
I've always loved Metric, don't get me wrong, and I still like a lot of their older stuff, but the album Fantasies is turning out to be my favourite album at the moment...
Blindness, Collect Call, and Sick Muse are probably my favourite songs (right now).
Emily Haines is a brilliant songwriter.. plus when I saw her live she grabbed my hand so obviously.. you know.. that means something..
her fashion sense/dance moves are all quite brilliant.

So here I am; here it is.
Gotta walk to school in about twenty minutes.
The time has come.
I am not nervous, and I'm not NOT looking forward to it,
just a little apprehensive. I've got like, chill, butterflies hanging out in my stomach.
I always get stuck in this rut when I go back to school,
where I have trouble socializing,
and just read most of the time to make up for that.
So I will be heading,
to Powells,
with a novel,
to start my morning.
Wish me luck, internet,
I am being thrown to the dogs.

I was searching through pictures from this time last year and I found this picture.

I love tye dye.

I'm currently doing a lot of different homework for all my different english classes:
In Lit we have a "woman in fiction" cumulative essay due in a month or so, so I read Cat's Eye and did a journal for it the other day, just remarking on different aspects, character traits, themes, or feminist qualities.
Now I'm embarking upon a huuuge and VERY DIFFICULT quest.
GRAVITY'S RAINBOW by Pynchon.
So far the most confusing book I have ever read. I'm on page 120 and I've re-read and re-read, and I have eight pages of journals too. It's hard because I have to do journals for my english class AND for my lit project, so I've got two notebooks out.
I've been listening to a lot of Handel today, classical music is definitely the easiest to study to.. and it's best with Lit.. I need a blank mind to be able to focus for Lit...
Anyways, Gravity's Rainbow is consuming me. it really is.
I have never spent so long reading a book before, it usually only takes me a day or a few hours, but this is a goddamn quest.

Halo Halo Halo,

I LOVE HALO.